Unable to Write a Line
It’s nearly a month since I blogged in Chinese. Nothing has been posted, with neither Chinese nor English content shown, as I should feel “speechless” when given a platform where I can speak at will! Woo… It’s bad enough.
The Chinese New Year was over when I braked my work at the end of February and I didn’t talk in here basically because of such preoccupation. As a matter of fact, it’s much easier for me to write something in English, fearless of what is posted and who’s to be the next reader. But in Chinese it’s a rough job. I have to choose right words considering who’ll get cross at my wording, say my BOSS, best-behavior friends and celebrities. Also there’s possibility that they are able to read English smoothly but, to my great joy, they are reluctant to. 
The picture was taken on the first day of the Chinese New Year, a day off once in a blue moon, a day when I turned into my tiger year.
It’s widely believed that it’s a common job in one’s year – to suffer, to worry, to ponder and to grow. Here are my recent self-invention:
1. You decide on one while you give up on many.
2. Never think of who never thinks of you.
3. Sometimes chances flood to the passive, not the active.
4. It’s not bad to crush yourself once in that it makes you unique.
Fellas have returned from the holiday, marking the beginning of a busy year. I’m also left with plenty of work to do. But before I go bad, who cares?
“Speechless” – Lady GaGa
Decayed Memory
There are amazing things one has seen only once in his life.
There are special occasions one has gone through only once in his life.
There are fine people one has been with only once in his life.
Once, only once.
As time goes by,
does he have the heart to think about those he may not see once again,
or will he?
Being oblivious is part of nature but it is miserable that he would like to accelerate it and pretends to be reluctant to.
Why do I have to dwell in the past as our paths can never have a chance to intersect?
I am waiting,
not for somebody new,
but for a right therapy to cure the trauma.
But I believe that
the city remains OK while memory is decayed.
(回憶的腐朽先於這座城市.)
“Photographic Memory” – Surrogate
Best Wishes through the Snow
From snowing Estonia to snowing Tianjin, the postcard from my best friend Ray must have traveled so much that I felt a bit of jealousy. Honestly I didn’t realize that I should cherish postcards from friends but luckily I have kept them all. This year, however, I do. I’m leaving college for the real human society soon, and gonna make new friends wherever I might be. A Chinese saying, new stuff is always better than something old. As for friends, I think it’s another case. Ray is one of my best friends, and he’s sent me a postcard every year since he stepped out of the land. I don’t know if I will receive his card next year. I mean, he’ll find me nowhere and vice versa. Or the possibility might be that both of us will be busy as hell and will never care about sending or receiving a simple paper card compared to the more puzzling life we will be going through.
The card goes “Dear Jason, you are always my best friend! Best wishes from snowing Estonia.”
Yes, Ray, I’m thanking you for being my best friend, and I’m proud of you.
If only someday the world would be proud of the two of us.
“Snow” – Maximilian Hecker
On the Cusp of a New Decade
A feeling of sloth has made this blog appear deserted, which I never hope to see but have to account for. This time, however, I don’t want to slip by the end of the year without telling you anything like I was not aware at all.
Recently I’ve been tangled in different things that seem so important that they might dramatically alter my life. I can’t tell them verbally because making decisions is always a struggle when one is standing at a crossroad in need of directions.
I don’t have complaints or attachment for 2009 since it’s a common year, but it’s harsh as well. Celebrities of a great number have cashed in their chips leaving behind endless reminiscence about them. Meanwhile, abnormal phenomena of various kinds have been raging that we can’t explain nor can we defend against.
Unpleasant things are to continue in 2010 I don’t doubt and yet I still wish it would be a peaceful year, full of bliss and sweet moments.
“LAST DAY” – Rurutia
47 Days Later – As Christmas Draws Near
Eventually I can blog now, after a seemingly successful reform of my official website as you might have seen typing in www.Arikid.com followed by pressing the Enter key. I still can’t figure out why loading the Flash version lags behind the previous text site but I’m thinking of another change to turn this site into a text/image embedded other than Flash-based one. Anyways, stay tuned and you will see what’s gonna happen.
Christmas is coming soon; I however, know quite well this is not a day for me, not in a religious sense but in that I stay very busy around Christmas doing all kinds of things like analyzing data during research, writing a dissertation, planning the future career and recording my new single and the expected first album. I’d love to say I’m enjoying what I’m doing and that’s much different from what I felt in the past when given the same things to do.
Things to do for Christmas? Almost none I think unless a simple booze-up or a big cake but it’s not necessarily the way I celebrate a big day.
No blogging for 47 days, I even thought I would have lost the ability to speak. Days remain the same whether or not I blog, take pictures or record songs. “The world has passed me by,” goes 1900. Shocked when I first heard this line, for I always feel the same.
And please don’t forget: Jason Arikid’s new single, featuring a Low-Key-Pop style, is coming out on January 10th, 2010.
“Winter Wonderland” – Lisa Ono
After College
October 17, 2009 – 90th B’day of my alma mater
I should have been happy that day.
However, I found myself indifferent to it.
Like you love someone and will probably gain nothing.
You love your alma mater and will probably lose something.
It’s horrible to show blind love.
I won’t, not ever.
I’m still thinking what I gotta do after college.
At this moment, my alma mater won’t help.
And nor will these temporary friends.
All is up to myself.
It’s good to make decisions of my own, all alone, though.
Mom Stands Up
Mom stands up and walks. It’s October 12, 2009. Factually she could yesterday.
[September 24] Admission
[September 28] Operation (7:30 – 13:30)
[September 28 14:00 - September 29 14:00] ICU
[October 11] Mom stands up and walks
Thanks to all my friends and co-workers who have ever blessed her and visited her.
I’m happy at what I have seen, too, though there’ll be a lot to do in the next few months.
Mom isn’t suffering, and will never be.
* I didn’t take the camera with me to the ward but I used my cell phone camera. It’s once in a blue moon. She didn’t even forget to treat me to an orange when standing on crutches.
“Mom” – Vanness Wu
Happy 60th Birthday to PRC
Flags are everywhere.
His voice cracked, but won a round of applause.
Are you happy now?
I stayed behind for 10 plus minutes, no one lending a hand.
I stuffed some money in the can; he thanked me before I left.
Happy 60th birthday to PRC.
Sorry but I see flags again.
When you celebrate, remember there are still some who can’t.
When you eat and drink, remember there are still a lot who can’t.
When you dress yourself in fashion, remember there are still more who can’t.
But who else would care?
Only help helps, not only the poor but yourself.
So why not have a try?
Don’t pretend to be cool when you leave your shit beside the poor.
You are damn retarded.
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“No Hard Feelings” – The Bloodhound Gang
On UNIQLO
Known for long that UNIQLO opens on Sept. 19 in Tianjin but I was busy on that day and had thought people might flood in so I stepped in today instead.
Generally the stuff there is not expensive. Part of the clothes are on sale and worth buying. The store is the first in Tianjin and thus can be regarded as the premium store. It’s large with three sections: MEN, WOMEN and KIDS. After shopping for an hour I found colors swimming around me (maybe because I didn’t take in anything). Yes, I said colors. Never ever had I felt bright colors so delicious.
Anyways, I decide to be a regular in UNIQLO.
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“Wardrobe Parade (Radio Version)” – Yuki Hsu
AKG K311
I’ve taken AKG K311, plum colored. It was stupid of me to believe it was a good looking product judging by the pictures on the net. When cracking the package I found myself nicked. The earbuds look like a plastic toy, or rather, anything but real earbuds.
K311 doesn’t look good, but this is not the direst fact. The sound is not pleasant in addition. I don’t know why AKG let out such a failure.
I picked up a song from my iPod and K311’s performance was really miserable. However, I don’t think it might sound significantly after a warm-up.
The song I’m on these days:
“Time Stops” – Vicki Zhao